I had a nice, uneventful weekend.
I had an epiphany. That I am afraid to have kids and have allowed my fear to rule me for a long time. I don't know if that means I will have kids, but at least I am facing what I realize is my biggest fear.
I sent T an email to this effect and thanked him for making a positive impact on my life. there is new mail in my box, I am afraid to look. I know that being a coward never got anyone anywhere. but I was already putting myself out there by sending the email.
I guess if he's the man I tink he is, I have nothing to fear, and if he isn't, then I am better off without him.