Tuesday, April 29, 2014

Starting new jobs

The thing about starting new jobs is, you have to unlearn your old one, and learn the new.

In my case, with the new job, there is  A LOT to learn. I thought, at the bank, that there were a lot of new things to get. This time, I'm with a start up software company. I have to learn the software, and all the software that it interacts with. And I have to be knowledgeable and confident and help other people with their issues.

I really thought it would be a piece of cake. Boy was I wrong!

On the plus side, I learn something new every day. And there are times, when I help a customer, and they are happy, that it's all I can do to stay in my chair, and not go dancing around the room, which, scares the dog.

Days like today are a little more difficult. I had my first coaching today. And it was a great learning moment. But man, I felt like awful. I will be better. I think I did do better! Until I had another moment where I didn't come across as knowledgeable enough. And it kind of killed my evening a little. I don't really want to go to bed and then get up and have to contact that customer again. Even though I will. Because the issue is not solved.and I had already fucked up by not calling him in the allotted time. I hadn't even realized he was on my list.

Because I want to excel. And I want to help people, not waste their time.

But most of all, I want to keep my job. I want to keep it and be fantastic at it. I LIKE my job. I like the people I work with. I like our customers. Even the ones who complain because those are the ones that help me learn to be better. I like the company and what they stand for. I like being a part of a team that is known for being excellent. I don't want to let them down.

I will be better.

Tuesday, April 22, 2014

time just got away from me - the rest of stuff

before I fell off the face of the earth a bit there, I mentioned that I was going to see about going back to *Bucks to make some extra money.

I applied. I let a candle.

I never heard back.

The funny thing about intention is that the universe hears and answers. A couple of days after I lit that candle, a friend of mine contacted me about a job opportunity in Customer Service at the company she worked for. the pay and benefits were awesome and the opportunity meant that I would work from home. i missed working with the public.

a couple of days after that, I met a man at the airport who owns a cabinet shop in town. He was suggested that he might have an opportunity for a woman with my skill set. i missed working in construction.

I pursued both.

I now work at home. the increase in salary was enough that I was able to replace my darling Honda with something newer and sportier (still don't know if my booth set up will fit in there). I don't worry about getting stranded somewhere and having  to call someone to pick me up. not that my Honey ever let me down. but she was 14 and had 200+ hard miles on her. She was getting increasingly leaky. I nearly cried when I said goodbye.

I love my Nissan.

I learn something new every day. I feel challenged. I feel like my brain is active. I can pay my bills. I am blessed.

Tuesday, April 15, 2014

I didn't realize it had been so long - Clot Update first

I finished out my meds in late January. I stopped taking them a week early because I forgot to pick them up at the pharmacy and my insurance changed. There was no way I was paying 100 bucks for a week of meds.

I was supposed to have an appointment with my primary Dr for follow up in March, but the month got away from me. The hope is that it really was the pills that caused the DVT and that I can go on with my life.

It's been 5 months since i stopped taking birth control pills, and I still go to bed every night thinking that I might have forgotten something. I know what it is, but it's a bit disconcerting that I still think I should have taken my "vitamin".

I still have pain sometimes of the sort that feels like it felt when I had the clots. And that scares me. A lot. It could be overuse or a turned ankle I forgot about. The left one did get sprained in February, so its not like it isn't possible. But it is scary. Every time my Aunt mentions that I am lucky, I am thankful that  I went to the hospital that night.

A couple of days ago, I paid off the last of my bills for that little adventure. Next week I will have the blood tests I need to make sure that this isn't a forever problem. Life went a little nuts there for awhile, but it seems to be quieting down again.

thank goodness.