Friday, January 28, 2011

Fun with Google

I do a lot of googling these days. I thought I would sare the google suggestions when they make me cry...

Today google asked,

"Did you mean Tiny Weiner?"

I lost my shit.

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Whew! Once again, the time, it flies!

Still hanging with the Boy Toy. Happy to do so, and am enjoying his company.

Went on a date last Saturday, it was fun. Was honest and told him I was seeing someone but not seriously. It took a lot of the pressure off. We drove around a lot, talked, and had dinner.

The track is almost built. I'm procrastinating sewing the nylon covers. I know I should just do it... But I have been bad about that lately. I tell myself I am going to get started on a project and then I do something else. BUT those somethings else have been productive!

SecretCrafters is picking up. It's exciting and fun to know I'm helping to facilitate a smile. If you haven't signed up yet, do!! 

Monday, January 10, 2011

If you have to ask, you probably are.

I had a sneaky suspicion that perhaps my "relationship" wasn't quite as meaningful as I would like it to be. Once again, I was feeling like I wasn't getting quite enough attention, one morning I woke up and the voice in my head said "you desperately want this to mean something", and I have really good reason to believe that he is seeing someone else too.

Girly trash in the bathroom in a bachelor's room is a pretty damn good indication. (and no, I didn't mention it and no, I wasn't digging through the trash, it was RIGHT THERE ON TOP. I couldn't miss it when I flushed the toilet.)

So I asked.

Apparently, I am not a booty call. Things are not serious (I didn't think they were) but he thinks too highly of me to consider me a booty call. He likes my company.

I don't think I have to tell you what the voice in my head said about that.

But I will give him that he took me to the movies that night and there was no monkey business so I feel a bit better about things. And the voice is quieter. And I will continue to see him because I like his company too.


It's not what I want. I want something with substance. And for some reason I keep inviting casual. I'm really looking hard at myself to find out why. Maybe it will grow into something, but in my experience, it won't, and I am not going to sit and wait for him to decide he can't live without me. Because he won't. And I already know I can live without him.

I am reminded, once again, that I tend to do better single. no emotional rollercoasters and I get things done. Like working on my business (I touch it almost every day lately!) and I start NEW adventures like the one below... Maybe that is my problem. That I am so independent that I give off the "i don't need you" vibe. And I invite men who don't want to be needed. Except Cheese. But we have been over that. 

In more positive and exciting news...

My friend Heather and I have started something great and I want you all to go take a look at it because, it's awesome and I am super excited about it. And by all means, join in the fun!