Friday, June 24, 2005

What is wrong with me??

It is completely unlike me to be in this horrible of a mood for this long. I don't know what is wrong with me. All week long I have been irritable, weepy, cranky, and today, I'm somewhat angry and somewhat "don't give a fuck".
I don't want to work, I don't want to knit, spin, make soap, play with the dog or the goat. I don't want to shop (course I'm broke so that's a good thing)Don't want to go out, don't want to stay in. I am annoyed with my friend (see posts below). Too early for PMS, I'm thinking it's a good thing I don't have a boyfriend because I don't even want to be around me. I couldn't even come up with Wednesday Fun this week so I had to send off some lame ass have a good weekend message with a pathetic attempt at humor when I discussed tormenting my goat. Blah. blah blah blah.

Ugh. I tried taking a nap yesterday , but that didn't help, and then I ended up sobbing after I watched "The Bachelor".

I hope this is just growing pains, and that I will get out of this slumo soon because I am driving myself crazy.

8 comments:

Sargini said...

Cheer up sweetheart. I mean you could be in a worse situation. I think it's all a matter of patience. Life will get excitting again. You'll find a reason to wake up in the morning. You know you just went through a great change, or should I say you are goping through a great change. From the outside looking in things are looking better for you. I know from the inside looking out it is hard to see the big picture because you are part of it. you know what I'm getting at. I mean I can turn to the end of the book and see how things end up. You are a character in the book of you. You can only see what on the page your on. Keep faith with who ever looks out for you. The great master of the universe, Ma, god, jesus, Miss Crabtree from the first grade, or some sort of guardian angel. They have a master plan. You chose to be single for a while and heal your wounds. That shows me that you are on the right track. I know you know everything I'm telling you, soooo commmme oooonnnn get haaaaappyyyyyyyy:-)
I know what you need is a big hugg.
and Don't worry everything is going to get better. Hug someone and concidder it from me.

Sargini said...

PS
I dont think anything is wrong with you...

Ginamonster said...

Ma. Thoughts of her will always make me smile. She'd tell me to go find myself a good man to...well, you get the picture. Or she's stick her false teeth out at me. Either way, thank you for your support.

Sargini said...

I didn't say to find a good man. There is nothing I can say to make you snap out of it. It will happen when you are ready.

Ginamonster said...

No, I was saying that my Grandmother would. and I don't expect any one to snap me out of it, that's up to me. Although I have to say the chocolate cake Grace fed me certainly did help!

Sargini said...

chocolate does the body good

cyouincourt007 said...

Must be a virgo/snake thing cause I know exactly what ya mean... : )

Ginamonster said...

Oh thank goodnes, I'm glad it's not just me! :) (I recommend a good fudgy chocolate cake infusion with milk on the side. I don't usually recommend milk, but this time, it helped make a body good)