Thursday, August 11, 2005

CRAP!

I don't think I told you about Park Ranger, the guy I met at the faire on Sunday. Park Ranger (PR) came along and sat for a long time watching me as I learned to weave on my Inkle Loom. We talked about this and that, and about my family's property which is in his desert jurisdiction.

He expressed interest in joining our guild at faires. So I gave him our card. (my info is not on the card, I am an apprentice) Then he wanted my number. Now, judging from my attitude towards him, I can say that although he is a nice fellow, I am not interested. Judging from the fact that I'm thinking (based on the amount of grey in his beard and the lack of hair on his head) that he is at least 10 years older than me. Out of my preferred range.

So I was thinking by yesterday that I wouldn't be hearng from him. Then he called last night. After a legnthy conversation, he asked what I was doing this weekend. I told him I was busy. Then he asked the question all women dead when they are making excuses. "Really, what are you doing?" uh, uh, (crap!) I have a lot of pick up work around the house that needs to be done (if I tell him I need to aerate my lawn, is that too obvious? I do need to, and I will be doing it this weekend) you know the stuff I would have done last weekend but I was at faire. (uh, um, panic, panic!CRAP!)
So I stuttered out a few mindless activities, feeling like a big idiot bitch, and finally said, "Why don't you call me this weekend and if I'm not knee deep in mud, I'll try to come out".

When will I ever learn? Oy.

8 comments:

Sargini said...

You better toughen up soldier. I don't want here this kind of crap coming out of your mouth anyrmore. What are you a jellyfish. You walk in your own shoe. I don't think anyone is paying your bills. These are your feelings, don't let people control them. It's time you say what you feel. And mean what you say. Stop telling people what they want to hear. Tell them like it is. That does not make you a bad person. It makes you someone that does not take abuse from anyone. Ask that guy his sign and what ever sign it is tell him like this. OH MY GOD thats what my last boyfriend was and it turned out terrible. I'm sorry he was very kind like you and things got upside down. Forgive me I am following my astrologers advice this time and the right one is what ever sign he is not. And if you want tell him that your phyciatrist told you to aviod any relationships until your off the medicine.hahaha Hey if you don't want to hurt his feelings then this should work.

Sargini said...

I am waiting for a reply. Or should I get off line?

Ginamonster said...

Sorry, I was gone, not ignoring you. I think I should just grow up and tell him I'm not interested. really. I get just as frustrated with myself as you are with me.

Sargini said...

I am not frustrated I just want to toughen you up. It is for your own good. You can tell him your not interesterd, that would be the right thing to do. What is he going to do. Nothing probably.

jen said...

Of course here comes Jen disagreeing...

I don't think you should ever count anyone out completely unless you really feel you didn't click. As we age, we start to realize that age is just a number, and hair is not as important. lol Really, though...I guess I've realized lately that things that happen by chance, such as meeting someone, should be looked into...never know why someone walks into your life...

Sargini said...
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Sargini said...

Jen did you hear what she was saying. She said that she was not interested in him at the fair. She did not know why she gave her number. I know why , because virgos do not want to disapiont people or upset them. She was saying that he was a nice guy but not to date.
(You said,"I've realized lately that things that happen by chance, such as meeting someone, should be looked into...never know why someone walks into your life...)
You have to forgive me , but that is the worst advice I have ever heard. Don't you think there is evil in this world trying to pull you down. The more gina straightens out her life the more evil is going to try to pull her back.

Ginamonster said...

I agree with Jen that you never know why someone walks into your life. each person I come into contact with changes me in some way. some drastically, some not so. it was nice to have PR interested enough to ask for my phone number because it reminded me that T is not the only fish in the sea.
I know that age becomes less important as you age and as you mature, I just haven't reached that point yet. it is an area I still need to grow into.