Funny thing is, that the Cowboy and the Goat share a name. Cowboy thought that was pretty darn funny.
Tonight he underlined the fact that as long as we continue to have fun, we can continue to spend time together. Fun. A Good time. He underlined that he isn't looking for another wife. (Right after he told me he was dissapointed at not getting to hang out with me last week.) That most women get these ideas after going out a few times about whomever they are dating being "the one"
I explained that I understood, (even though it hurt. I didn't tell him that part, I just stalked around my room) but that women always think that way because it's how we are. That he had made it abundantly clear where he was coming from.
Can I handle that? of course. I've been doing it for years. As long as he doesn't think that having fun means anything physical because that is where I have to draw my lines. Because we have all seen how I don't know how to seperate the physical from the emotional and frankly, I think I am worth far more than a good time. and I think I have wasted too much of myself on "hopefully" and "probably".
So sure, Cowboy, we can be friends. We can hang out and have fun together. And I? will not allow silly romantic dreams of fairy tale endings blind me to what you said. Because I believe that you meant it.
And I? will keep looking for my fairytale ending because I know it's worth it to wait for what is right and damnit, I deserve it.
So maybe tomorrow but definately the next day? we can go out to dinner. And if you show up and I have paint on my nose and glue on my fingers? Or wool in my hair? It's because I don't see any reason to be exceptionally careful with my appearance for someone out to have a good time. My "pals" like me that way.
(after I hung up the phone I stomped around and threatened to throw the phone. But since I NEED it, I didn't. But I wanted to. I also stomped quietly so as not to alert the neighbors. or the roomates.Because, you know, I was likeing that one even though I have tried to play it off. What I really need is a good heartfelt scream)
6 comments:
GM, Cowboy sounds like a guy who is kind enough to tell you up front instead of leading you on. And, you know how I feel about sex outside of marriage.
That said, I bet, if his idea of a "good time" means enjoying being with each other, other than in the sack, then you should not get upset. If he means having sex as having a "good time" then you are right to be upset.
I cannot tell you how it breaks my heart to know women who freely sleep with a guy, even guys with five kids all from different mothers. To that guy, that woman is just number six.
It blows my mind.
It's nice he let you know up front about not wanting marriage...but in a way it's kind of stupid too, and hopefully his idea of "fun" is not just sex...then you have a big reason to be upset...and really, what woman does know how to seperate the physical from the emotional...I know I never could!
What the other two folks just said!
I like your idea of dressing down since he just wants a pal.
I don't like the idea of dressing down. Think about the message that sends to a guy.
"This woman was dressing to the nines and I thought, "She really knows how to take care of herself," and now she shows me that was just a show. What else is she presenting that is not the real her?"
Not taking sides, GM. Really I am. I am rooting for you. But, I am trying to help.
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Hi Meghan, thanks for sttopping by. Please visit all you want. Unfortunately, I do not know any boys your age who are single. Good luck with that though.
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