Thursday, February 16, 2012

When did I become so damn critical?

I know that I have always had the tendancy to not only think I am right, but that my way is the way it should be done. It is a struggle, sometimes, not to impress MY way on, well, everyone.

It is a struggle not to give too many explainations when a nod and smile are approprite.

So hard not to pick every little thing apart. No one and nothing is flawless.

I am not flawless.

My eyes have been opened to this quite a bit over the last couple of weeks. And in some cases, by holding on to my convictions about a subject, I have been wrong. Very wrong. People change without announcement.

What matters though is than in addition to people correcting me when I'm wrong-

The family member who is now clean.
The other family member who has made peace with her daughter.

Today my daily note from the Universe said this:
Guidance, attention, help, maybe. Love, always. Criticism, never.
What to give others.

What to give others. Have I been giving these things enough or have I been too busy grimacing at a sour note? Or tuning out the monotone narrative?

In trying to improve myself, have I become less accepting of others? I think in some ways I am accepting, but maybe not in the right ways?

I don't really know. It's a lot of food for thought and since it is coming up from several different sources lately, I can't help but think that it's my next life lesson. It is certainly something I want to be aware of and change about myself.

So now I think I will start asking myself, "What am I giving to others?"

1 comment:

Anita said...

Such great thoughts and insight into yourself!
I have learned that because I set the bar so high for myself, it sometimes causes me to expect the same level of excellence from others. I have to stay mindful of this, so that I don't get upset with someone for not doing what I consider their best, or the best thing. It's a challenge, but my relationships are better when I am successful.
And kudos to the clean family member! There is one in my family, who took us all down a long and painful road, that has about three years now. it's such a relief!
Aren't TUT's notes just awesome!
xo, Anita