I watched Tombstone last night for the first time, or I should say, that I finished watching it, as it generally takes me a couple of days to watch a movie. Truly I cannot remember the last time that I sat and watched a film, usually I'm doing something else as well and wandering all over the house OR I have to stop the movie part way through and go run an errand or go to work.
So, it was a good movie, I enjoyed it, but at the end, something was said that made me feel better about my world and where I am, and the jealousy I sometimes feel towards those who lead what is in all appearances a "normal life". You know, the kind where you settle down to a job, a house, a spouse, and a couple of rug rats. Doc Holliday said the following to Wyatt Earp at the end of the movie:
"There is no Normal Life, there is only Life"
I hope that his words return to me when I am feeling antsy about where I stand in this world. In overview, I think I am doing the best that I can to live my life to the fullest. I should stop worrying about whether I am living the "right" life, and accept that I just need to live MY life. and that my life is different from other people's. It is unfair to me to expect to do what other people have done. So I am shopping around before I pick a partner. What's wrong with that? I'm not a slut, and I'm not harming anyone. Sure, I'd like to "settle down" but first I have to find a man who will encourage me to fly. To follow my dreams and adventure with me. Being married must not be right for me at this time in my life because I haven't done it yet. Just because everyone else is doing it, doesn't mean I have to. I think I need to remember how much I like living outside the box and how much that box can feel like a cage when you aren't ready for it.